it used to be a battle between 2 selves.. each thinking the other was the weaker one.. asserting themselves whenever the situation arose.. it made me at ends.. at the same time it allowed me to take away the best of from both worlds.. thinly threading the line that seperates the vastly different psychiis..
now i can feel one side winning.. taking over.. almost erasing the other into oblivion.. such that i operate on its rules and nothing else.. it is neither a good thing nor a bad as it has its merits and contradictions. I dont want to completely transform.. somebody help me..