expectations are a dangerous thing.. with the only positive outcome occuring when expectations=result.. they form an integral part of our lives.. its the essence that makes us tick.. the reason why we get angry.. why we feel happy.. why we feel loved.. all have its links to expectations.. if they are met we feel good.. if they are not.. we feel bad.. which is why we should never betray its importance.. expectation is responsible for the deadliest of sins a friend could commit.. taking one another for granted.. true there are expectations accorded to different statuses of friendships.. but certain things should never be expected..

i would never mind doing things for my friends.. in exchange for a little gratitude and appreciation.. the only way i could ever feel taken for granted is if it was expected.. aside from that.. everything i do is with with absolute willingness and nary a grudging heart and it would please me so if i could bring just a spot of happiness to your day..

one would assume that if expectations < results.. surely that would be a good thing.. we got more than we asked for.. a joyous occasion worthy of a celebratory champagne! but that would only mean succumbing to the surly disposition that is complacency.. in the long run, after being constantly exposed to a string of good results.. we would be hardpressed not to have our expectations raised.. to meet this sudden increase in result.. bringing to mind the all ruling truth of the universe that everything gravitates to an equilibrum.. a state of rest and tandem.. are you still following? so.. what happens then when these expectations are unequivocally raised? the moment these expectations are not met.. when the results shift back to the previous equilibrum they knew.. disappointment, sadness, rejection, frustration and a whole host of negative nouns override ANY and EVERY positive emotion your previous good results have brought.. the sickening feeling that guts you everytime you think you can be happy.. the only thing you think about when you wake.. when you sleep.. when you eat and when you shit.. so you think expectations < results is a good thing? think again.. needless to say expectation are easy to be raised.. but hard as hell to be lowered.. how well one handles such a situation.. depends on your trust and faith in the person/situation..

conversely if expectations > results.. the same set of negative nouns apply.. but this time.. should expectations be successfully lowered.. equilibrum will be reached and the world is at peace..

so the thing is.. it seems to me that starting out with a set of high expectations garners less heartache than setting ones expectations lower.. it is akin to raising something on a pedestal.. only to have it come crashing down.. the higher you are.. the harder you fall.. however if expectations are high and results are low.. the pedestal is never raised and the only way is the proverbial UP..

i am guilty of underestimating expectations.. slapping myself in the face with a trout seems not to wake me up from this abysmal slumber of calculated mistakes engineered for my downfall.. a fall i am fully conscious of.. a fall where i am aware of the outcome.. but unable to do anything about.. will you be that lonely branch? or that narrow ledge? that saves me from my own self constructed hole of despair.. the last shred of hope i can grab onto before everything degenerates into the nothingness from which it came from..

its funny.. the truth seems further the closer we get to it..

its there.. right under your nose.. cloyingly tempting you.. but no matter how hard you look.. have you ever seen under your nose?

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